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Pretty Girls
01:45
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A pretty girl at the bus stop
She smiles at me and I look away
A handsome butch at the book shop
She winks at me and my knees give way
A schoolgirl crush tearing through me
My fragile heart's inside my throat
I look in the mirror, so beastly
And hide myself inside my coat
I look away, I look away
I look away, I look away
Can't take the disdain to let things slip
So pitiful, a person of
Such freakishness, forming a friendship?
This lust has got me lost for love
Your face is all but perfection
I want to see your eyes light with joy
But I simply see my reflection:
A broken sissy faggot boy
I look away, I look away
I look away, I look a–
Sometimes I think I could ask you out
A casual date could be good for my health
But how can I ask you to be with me
When I don't want to be with myself?
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You and I were rebounds
Well, that's not quite true to say of you
But it's true enough as background
It was complicated and you were frustrated
And I was feeling beat down
I got hurt hard-ly and I knew hardly
Anyone else in this town
I needed a bed to rest my heart and head
Tell me
Was our relationship ever anything other than a trophy to hold over her?
You knew how to fuck me
It hit the spot and that helped a lot
It was an erotic poetry
And your tender touch helped me so much
But when you and she got ugly
You wanted to subvert us, use me to hurt her
More than you could love me
But now I'm done, I won't be your gun
Tell me...
It's never too late to fall in love
And feel your heart break like a dying dove
And feel the peace ripped from your chest
It's never good enough when you try your best...
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Signs of Life
02:39
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I still know how to kiss you
And occasionally I miss you
And in my nightmares it is still you
God, I hope I didn't kill you
Are you a vision or a memory?
A love song or a eulogy?
A strange unyielding mystery?
I wish you'd show me
Signs of life!
My heart's in overdrive
My mind is in a nosedive
Is there a way I can survive
With all my lovers left alive?
I don't know how to make sense
Of my failed adolescence
The regrets that always haunt me
Anxious spectres of our story
Am I a villain or a victim here?
The kicking of a baby queer
Am I the monster that I fear?
I'm looking here for
Signs of life...
And I won't apologise
Because I don't know how to
But I hope you recognise
I was as lost with you
As without you...
My heart's in overdrive...
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The Worst is Yet to Come
02:27
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Why must death be so ubiquitous?
Breaks my heart that's filled with childishness
For when you end a life with insignificance
My memories fade to inconsequence
And it makes me all so very numb
And I know the worst is yet to come
Why must love be so impermanent?
Shooting stars traversing the firmament
And it breaks me down, leaving me delicate
You'd think by now that I could handle it
But it makes me all so very numb
And I know the worst is yet to come
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Trying to Stay Sober
03:17
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I am trying to stay sober
For a couple hours
One lonely Friday afternoon
I am trying to stave off the
Desperation
And hoping to see you soon
And I wish you would come home to me
And that we had a home to go home to
And I wish you would forgive me
Even though I didn't do anything wrong to you
I am trying to stay hopeful
For a couple hours
In this cold unfeeling air
I am trying to keep away
From my depression
Killing time and despair
And I wish you would come home to me
'Cause you and I could be a perfect pair
And I hope you really miss me
Even though I cannot bring myself to care
I am trying to stay horny
For a couple hours
Addicted to the sweat
I am trying to replace the
Senseless fucking
That would keep me warm in bed
And I wish you would come home to me
And that we had a home to go home to
And I wish you would forgive me
Even though I didn't do anything wrong to you
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You could have been a bit more honest
Or a better liar
You could have told me you'd replaced me
That I wasn't desired
But you left me an afterthought
So rip out my heart to see it rot
You've got her, she's got you
And I'm no longer required
But It's the grim little chores that get to me
The awful specifics
A love affair reduced to papers
A dispassionate business
You wrote to me on letterhead
Like my soldier son had turned up dead
Well, I'd like to think I left more impression
Than just fucking logistics
While I replace all my human contact
With self-pollution
She's out there fighting the good fight
It's her contribution
But I cannot stand to think of her
Reminding me of what we were
So my romantic fallout is hindering
The revolution
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I've been broken
Since I was seventeen
But I just keep it clean
Don't want to make a scene
I don't want to
Make my mother cry
So I just falsify
The happy butterfly, and
All my lovers
They all left me
No one to ask me
Down on bended knee, I
Wish I'd stayed there
Alone and broken
Wish I'd stayed there
With all my pain and scars unspoken
In the dark days
I trace the history
No point in sophistry
Because it's not a mystery, but
I have to wonder
In this bitter sunrise
With how I'm compromised
Would you recognise me?
I've got to ask you
Could it have been better?
I would write a letter
But don't want to upset ya
I know I left it
Alone and broken
I know I left it
With all my pain and scars unspoken
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Broken Jaw Blues
01:52
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Doctors broke my jaw today
It didn't hurt a bit
And then they put it back again
Doctors broke my jaw today
It made me feel like shit
But soon I'll be as right as rain
Doctors broke my jaw today
Reflection's all amiss
And I'm a nervous fucking wreck
Doctors broke my jaw today
A surgeon's brutal kiss
Oh, how I wish they'd break my neck
Doctors broke my jaw today
Surrounded me with men
My tragic XY future in this place
Doctors broke my jaw today
I wish I could know when
I'll stand to look my mirror in the face
Doctors broke my jaw today
And shattering as well
My fragile adolescent sense of self
Doctors broke my jaw today
And sent me into hell
Chose my dental over mental health
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Loose Changeling Nottingham, UK
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one half of quarriesandcorridors.bandcamp.com
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